Creating Money Doing What You Enjoy

I’m reading ‘Creating Money’ by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer. I’ve read all their other books, but I shied away from this one. I had trouble reconciling spirituality with materiality. Money has lots of negative connotations. You see wealthy people on telly and in magazines, they don’t appear very evolved spiritually, sometimes they don’t even look very happy. Then there are governments and politicians who use money to gain power over people. And somewhere we’ve developed this idea that to be poor is to have moral integrity, (the only people this serves are our employers!)

Jesus has a parable about a rich man and a needle. And I’m sure it says somewhere in the bible, we should store our treasures in heaven not on earth. For people who have developed an attachment to money, it’s good advice. Probably not so good for me, who has a dislike of money. I guess it really depends on the intended audience.

In the world today, in the west that is, we have a higher standard of living than in previous centuries. We have the internet, computers, mobile phones, satellite television. I think you can become enlightened, if you want, by withdrawing from society and leading a simple life. But then you wouldn’t be taking advantage of the opportunity for accelerated evolution for all of humanity. All of this media can be used to help raise the planet’s consciousness, it can also be used for negative reasons. In order to use it for positive purposes, we have to have access to it. Which means having a certain amount of disposable income.

Buying this book was a big step for me and represents a shift in my values. I don’t think I’m unique in this. I think lots of people have gone through the same process. It’s weird, when you arrive at a new place in your thinking; you ask yourself why it took you so long. For me I think a lot of things had to change in myself first. Like getting more self-respect and time for myself, and having more faith in myself and not referring every action to someone else for approval.

The first chapter of this book is really good. It teaches you that you are the source of your abundance. Just reading that chapter made me feel peace and confidence. So far I have lived life at the mercy of other people’s whims. If I was happy or sad, rich or poor it was because of someone else – or so I thought. But it doesn’t have to work that way. So long as you don’t mind how stuff comes to you, you can attract everything you need into your life. You are the creator, the Magician. You are in control of your own life.

The second chapter seemed less relevant to me. First it warned against wanting money to gain status, or because you think owning things will make you happy. Then it said that to make money you need to start doing the things you love. Don’t work at a job you don’t like thinking one day you will be able to retire and then do the things you enjoy – that’s living in the future not the present. Start doing the things you enjoy now!

And I thought, that’s kinda what I’ve been trying to do. Hence taking a career break and going back to university. And hence me leaving two jobs voluntarily, without any guarantee of another job – I was criticised by people for doing this, family and friends. I think some of them were genuinely offended at what they thought was reckless behaviour, I think some were just jealous. But really, you can’t run your life based on other people’s opinions, not if you want to be happy.

I’ve come up with lots of ideas for making money since then, doing things I think I would enjoy. So I thought, this chapter doesn’t have anything to say to me. Later on I was sitting on the sofa watching television. I saw a book lying on the coffee table, about making flowers from paper. (This was one of my plans for making money).

And then I realised, each of these schemes of mine has begun from the same premise – what can I do to earn some money. I’m still coming at this from the wrong direction. I still want some guarantee before I start, that what I’m doing will make me money. It’s the money, not the doing that is the inspiration behind these ideas. I’m not really trusting that what I want to do will bring me abundance. What I should be doing is tying to figure out what I want to do first, the money will come later.

I think that’s why none of my schemes ever got off the ground. I didn’t have the motivation to get started, money isn’t a great motivator for me anyhow. And just doing something because you want to make some cash from it, kinda takes the pleasure out of it. For me anyway, I think it also depends on your personality. I’m just not that focused on the material world, which gets me into trouble. I’m not saying it’s a good thing. Maybe it’s the autism. But if I want to be independent, so I can live my life according to my values, I need a source of income. So I need to decide what it is that i most enjoy doing.

Later this same day:
I sometimes think I’m not doing enough. Mostly this comes from measuring myself against people who are NT. So I’m always setting myself up for failure. This afternoon when I was in the kitchen, I thought, ‘All I’ve done today is cook and write’. Then a thought came to me – ‘That’s enough’. I realised, I’m not expected to do anymore than I’m able to. That thought made me happy, just cooking and writing. Two things I enjoy doing. So who knows, maybe it will lead to something. The thought I could earn a living just doing just those two things made me feel good.